I keep typing posts at work and not getting them posted. It's okay, a lot of the time I am journaling and it's more detailed than is really needed in a blog.
The last two days have been rough. Really rough. My stomach has been gnawing constantly and I feel hungry all the time. I made it through yesterday, except I had a piece of corn on the cob with my dinner, and instead of a shake for my evening meal, I had an 80-calorie container of Greek yogurt. I was hoping it would soothe the gnawing feeling, but it didn't. I also ate some dill pickle spears. I still went to bed hungry.
I woke up in about 2 hours and realized I was having withdrawal symptoms. I now know stepping down from a stronger med to the next one down can cause withdrawal symptoms. My legs were so restless I had to get up and I finally realized that was why I was so hungry. In withdrawal, I want to eat everything in sight. I took a warm bath and after a bit took about a third of one of the stronger pills. I slept the rest of the night and didn't feel ravenous the next morning.
I thought today was going to be a lot better and it was until after lunch. Then I started getting that restless feeling and my stomach was gnawing again. I had gone down to a salad bar downstairs and gotten me some raw veggies to snack on just in case, and I snacked on those a good part of the afternoon. I was ravenous when I got home. I had asked my daughter to pick me up a salad at Chick-Fil-A and it was waiting for me when I got home. The thing is, she got it with breaded chicken instead of grilled. I still ate it because I didn't really have anything else in the house. It tasted so good, but I felt a little nauseous at the same time. Just part of the w/d I am sure.
I have now taken another half a stronger pill and hopefully will feel better soon. I was miserable this afternoon. I'm sneezing (another thing I do when withdrawing) and was grouchy and restless, etc. But I held out several hours until I got home. I sure hope it doesn't last too long because I only have 1-1/2 pills left. That's kind of scary.
I would not have made it this far if I did not have that vacation in sight. I want to feel better for it (and in general, but the vacation motivates me). I have to stick with it.
I was thinking that probably the best thing I could do to get ready for vacation besides some extra walking is to do stretching and core exercises. A strong abdomen supports your lower back and maybe would help between now and then. I really need to make myself do this. One thing that deters me is the hard floor in the loft, but if I need to get some extra pads to make it work, I need to do that.
That's it for today. I'm pretty sure I can make it through the evening. TGIF!!