Things have gotten pretty busy and I am pretty covered up at work. I kind of like it that way, but I am tired. I overslept this morning. I have been having consistent headaches again. I have been thinking they were related to getting off the SF Red Bulls, but it has been long enough now, I think, where that shouldn't be an issue. I haven't been taking my muscle relaxants regularly (I don't like to, because they make me drag), and I told myself I was going to remember that if I started getting steady ones again. The muscle relaxant seems to help more than anything. I would rather drag than wake up with a headache every day. I need to work on some more of my stretching exercises on my own and see if I can coax them to ease up. Plus that is good for stress relief.
I was wanting carbs this morning. I think it is more of a comfort thing than anything. I googled whether it was an okay thing to take a day off from Atkins every once in a while, and didn't get the answer I would have liked. Most people say not to because then you are off and it leads to more compromising, etc., etc. I wasn't talking about a whole day of eating whatever I wanted; just one carby treat. But I won't do it. The scale is moving gradually, my clothes are getting looser, so why would I want to mess that up? The emotional feelings I was having this morning will pass.
I had breakfast earlier than usual (I was hungry). I had the last of the Ham and Swiss Pie. It is sooo good. I am going to have to make it again soon. Next time I might make it with ground pork sausage. But I don't know, that would make it higher calorie and it is so good the way it is.
I didn't quite get all my meals together and packed this morning. The only thing I lack is a veggie, so I will go downstairs and get a side salad. I brought my own, homemade salad dressing. Snack was 2 dill pickle spears, each wrapped in a slice of cheese and a piece of deli ham. That was pretty good. I like it better than with just the ham.
I did not work out this morning. I know. It was the oversleeping and the pounding headache. :(
Lunch today is leftover Korean Meatballs with the side salad mentioned above. Cooking ahead makes everything easy. I just needed to make some veggies. I am hopeful I will not have to work so late tonight, but I am not holding my breath. My boss' schedule is very packed, and we have to take moments to work together every chance we get.
I found something that might help with my cravings. I found a recipe for Atkins vanilla ice cream It is made with Stevia and has only 3.8 grams of carbohydrate. Maybe this will fulfill that need for a treat every once in a while.
I was thinking about these cravings that I am having on occasion. I got to wondering if it was because I needed to move on to the next phase of Atkins. Here is what I found on the website:
Move to OWL (ongoing weight loss) if . . .
- You’re already within 15 pounds of your goal weight. It’s important for you to move on to learn a new, permanent way of eating.
- You’re bored with your current food choices.
- You’ve been in Induction for several months and are more than halfway to your goal.
You may choose to stay in Induction if . . .
- You still have more than 30 pounds to lose.
You should stay in Induction for now if . . .
- You still have a large amount of weight to lose.
- You’re still struggling with carb cravings.
- You’ve not been fully compliant with Induction.
- You still have elevated blood sugar or blood pressure levels.
- Your weight loss is slow and you aren’t physically active.
I went to talk to my friend at work about my struggles and she had some bad news about her dog and was crying. I felt so bad to be complaining about craving carbs at a time like that. But I didn't know.
I'm telling you, I don't know if I am coming or going half of the time. I sent out some bills to be paid for my boss using his card number, the expiration date of which is 06/13. I remember thinking, oh this will expire soon. It didn't even register with me that it is already past June. I know it's because I have so much on my mind.
Snack this afternoon was celery with organic peanut butter.
I just wasn't up to finishing my post last night when I got home. I didn't work very late, but I was really tired. I kept nodding off while watching television.
Dinner was brisket. I didn't have any veggies ready, and didn't feel like fixing them, so I didn't. But then I ate some nuts later. Not a lot, but I should have had the veggie instead. I felt like I was carb crashing because I was feeling withdrawal symptoms. But I had had all my medication, so it wasn't that. And I have felt that way a couple of other times when I had not had enough carbs. The nuts seemed to help a little. I took a warm bath and went to bed.
I got up with a reasonable amount of energy this morning and was actually pretty productive. I got my workout done and a few chores done, so that felt good. I decided that today I was just going to eat meals and not snacks, since I am two days away from weigh-in. I made sure I was good and satisfied at each meal, with breakfast and lunch, although I got a little empty during the afternoon.
Breakfast was pork sausage and scrambled eggs with spinach and feta cheese, which I topped with a little pico de gallo. Work was so busy, I didn't have time to think about not having a snack. It was not a problem at all. Lunch was Green Enchilada Chicken Casserole and a salad. My carb cravings are much better today -- no problem. Thank goodness. Maybe I didn't eat enough yesterday. I didn't count them up, but knew I was not overdoing.
If there was any doubt before, there is no doubt today that my clothes are getting looser and I am getting thinner. The pants I have on today were already a little big, but today they are bordering on being too big to wear. And the shirt is looking looser too. I got down below the weight I am at now a few months ago, but I don't ever remember this shirt looking this loose. But maybe I just don't remember. I know one way to tell -- soon I will try on a dress I had gotten down to before and see how it is fitting. Perhaps I am losing differently this way and more fat is being taken from my belly. I'll be just fine with that!
I have maintained the tidiness of my loft all week and that definitely makes home feel better. Maintaining is so much easier than cleaning up a mess. I have more cleaning to do -- dusting, etc. -- but at least things are not cluttered up (at least by my standards). :) I still have too much stuff in some ways and need to purge. But not like sitting around with no place to put it. Mostly decorative stuff that I have out because I had it already and just found a place for it. It would probably look better for me to streamline it a little.
I had my massage today. I am pretty sore from what she has been doing. It is all for the greater good, but that doesn't mean you don't feel it. Sometimes I feel like I've had a workout when she gets done -- I just feel all wrung out. She is going to be out of town until next Thursday, and I am kind of glad I will have the break to work through some of the soreness. I am doing this to get better, and it is discouraging sometimes to be hurting more than before I did it. But that is because I am stretching more than I have in a long time. The muscles have to heal after doing that. I need to work more during the week on stretching on my own. The more I stretch (safely), the more things are going to stay in better condition. I do think I am going to go back to using my neck collar (from my surgery) when I sleep. I seem to be waking up hurting more. I am sleeping flat on my back with a neck pillow and not moving in a weird way, but sometimes my head goes to the side and stays that way for too long and that makes me hurt.
Today is an extremely busy day. I definitely earned my paycheck today. And I wouldn't be surprised if I took 10,000 steps just at work today. I'm beat. I was hungry when I got home at 7:00, but not out of control hungry. I cooked some hamburger patties with cheese melted on them and roasted some broccoli. I needed something easy but filling.
That's it for tonight.