I was so looking forward to getting through today and getting to the 3-day weekend. I am pretty fed up with the way my family has been beat up over the last few years. This needs to stop. I need to be more serious about praying over the situation. Enough is enough. When my daughter talked to me about all those things last night, my normal reaction is I just want to fix it. But I can't fix this, try as I might. But I know the One Who can.
I am doing my best not to hold onto the stress of this. I am feeling so much better in a lot of ways. I was marveling this morning over the range of motion in my neck. It hasn't been this way for a long, long time. And I am having very few headaches. As far as the rest of my body, most of what I feel today is muscle soreness from the exercise and my thighs are tired from the workouts. I can deal with that. My MT did a major stretch on my feet and the backs of my legs, for the plantar fasciitis. I was amazed at how much my left leg fought it. I tried to stop resisting, but I couldn't. I didn't realize how much I was fighting it until she took her hand and pushed my left knee down. Then the sciatic pain started kicking in. She said I had probably developed a protective mechanism from the sciatica. Ouchies. When she did my right leg, I was able to see the difference -- I didn't have any trouble keeping that leg straight and not fighting what she was doing. She showed me more stretches to do on my left hip. There is only so much I can tolerate, because it really causes the radiating pain to kick in while I am doing it. But I don't seem to have any residual pain today, thank the Lord. So I will do these several times during the week, just a little at a time.
Despite the goings-on from last night and the heaviness of my heart, plus getting to bed later than I like to and oversleeping, I did my recumbent bike workout. That means I have gotten 8 workouts this week, even though some of them were small. They count.
I have now passed 5 pounds lost, so I can set another 5-pound goal. The Beck Diet Solution says you should reward yourself for each goal met. Perhaps I over-indulged a 5-pound loss, but these 5 pounds were a long time coming. Here is my reward (my pets insisted on being in the pictures):
|This will go with a blouse I have|
(among other things)
|This will go great with a dress I have.|
Today turned out to be pretty busy. But that's good -- it makes the day go fast. I got off on time. I have been feeling a little bored with my food the last couple of days. I looked at some Atkins recipes, and with all the sauces you can make, there is no need to have some plain, tasteless meat for dinner. I got a grilled chicken breast from the cafeteria downstairs at work, and it just seemed like it was missing something -- to me it need a little sweetness in the seasoning, but you can't do that much with Atkins. I only ate half of it for lunch. And the broccoli I got was really bland, so I only ate a couple of bites (but I did eat a salad). So I had those for dinner and made a little cheese sauce with cream and some cheddar melted in, with some seasonings added. Much better! I printed off a lot of recipes for sauces and salad dressings. If I could have just dipped the broccoli in salad dressing, that would have made it better, but I didn't have any. I know all this sounds funny for a weight loss diet, but that's Atkins. We have been fed a line of bull about low fat diets. I try not to go overboard on what I am eating, but they encourage you to eat good fats for satiety. And I am losing weight. When I am ready to go to the next phase (after I have completed at least 2 weeks), I can add more carbs, but not too much. It's working, so I am not going to argue with success. The good thing is, my appetite is just not that big eating like this.
That's it for tonight. I think I am going to walk down to my new gym and pick up my membership card. I will take Cas and just carry him while I go in to get the card. He will enjoy the walk.