I woke up this morning with a headache and that was it, I called in. My desk is in good shape and Jerry is gone. I needed a day to regroup. I stayed on the muscle relaxants today and planned to go get a chair massage, but was so knocked out, I slept all afternoon. I haven't been wearing my neck collar at night -- the pets dragged it off somewhere -- so need to start doing that. I found it under the bed. I probably should get massages twice a week for a while to get things to settle down.
I have done a lot of reading on my headaches and I believe I have what is called cervicogenic headaches. Every few years, I go through a battery of tests to see what is wrong and we always come back to the same thing -- headaches are caused by tight muscles in the neck and shoulders. When I read the description for cervicogenic headaches, it described me to a tee. The headache is referred from the hard structures or soft tissues of the neck. I always have this knot of pain at the base of my skull and the headache wraps around from there to my forehead and temples. Many things can cause it -- certain movements of the neck, etc. I would probably do a lot better if I did not have to sit at a computer all day. So I have to manage the build-up of that tension and tightness. 20 years of almost daily headaches is no fun. Sometimes I get a little too adept at coping instead of looking for solutions. It is easy to get caught up in the cycle of them so that I am just making it through my days and that's it.
I did a protein bar day today. Between resting and taking care of my headaches, I worked on the loft and got it fairly clean and peaceful. Cas is driving me crazy with too much pent-up energy. I am not walking him enough. I really have to find ways to tire him out more. He got a little dose of melatonin this morning to help him calm down.
The other thing I decided, until I can get to the doctor, is I am going to get me some St. John's Wort, which is a natural supplement that helps with depression. Bethany has borrowed my car this week because her alternator went out, so I didn't get to the doctor today. I have been trying to find a new one to go to, closer to where I live now. I haven't settled on anyone yet. I prefer a woman doctor -- they seem to be more understanding, for the most part.
Even though I am still struggling with my eating, I feel like I am making some progress. I am dealing with a lot of emotional stuff that is a part of why I overeat. I am thinking about going on a holding pattern with my withdrawal until I get going on a good eating plan on a consistent basis. Plus I need the medicine when the headaches get really bad. These particular headaches are not rebound headaches. I can tell because of how tight the muscles in my neck and shoulders are.
I want to do some stretching exercises and see if they help, but I am a little nervous doing that since wrong movements set them off. But I probably should go ahead and try since I am having them anyway. I'm sure that would help with the muscle tension. I will just have to pay attention to what works and what doesn't.
I did well on just the protein bars and that makes me feel better. I had some meat thawed out that needed to be cooked, so I made this Swiss steak recipe. I will have dinner all ready for me tomorrow. I just need to make some mashed potatoes to go with it.
I'm afraid I am still having the headache this evening. I will try to nip it in the bud tonight and break the cycle of it. It really is wearing on me.