I’ve done fine on my eating yesterday and today. For breakfast today I had Banana Custard Oats with some toasted coconut again. I slept all morning. For lunch I had some beef vegetable stew (just didn’t feel like fixing anything today) and a serving of FSTG sweet potato chips and some fresh pineapple.
During the afternoon I had some Greek yogurt and a tangelo. Later I had an apple. My daughter dropped by and brought me Chipotle for dinner. I had 2 tacos, one steak and one chicken, with fajita veggies, lettuce and pico, plus a tablespoon of guacamole on each. I also had a half-serving of black beans. I had 8 points left after that. One thing I had was popcorn (4 points). Over the weekend I bought a package of the single serving Blue Bell ice creams (a 12-pack). I was interested to see how I would do with having that around. I just knew that if I go buy a pint at CVS, I am going to eat the whole pint. If I buy a regular-sized carton, I am likely to eat a bigger serving than I should. I wanted to see how I would do with this. One ½-cup serving (a container) has 4 points. I did not eat any Monday or Tuesday. Tonight I had the points available and I ate 1. My conclusion is this – if I am in the mode where I want to stay on track, I am not going to overeat on it. If I am not in the mode, then it is just as easy for me to go next door to CVS and get a pint of it. I like being able to work a small serving of it in every few days. Sometimes it is not worth 4 points to me. I want more bulk than that. But tonight, I felt full enough that it was worth 4 points to me. So I am okay having it around.
There were thunderstorms all day, so I didn’t walk Cas. I did do the recumbent bike this morning. Again, I had not decided I needed to stay home yet. I already had my makeup on, etc. before I decided I needed another day at home. I didn’t feel up to doing a second one this evening. But I have 4 workouts so far this week, which is better than last week by a long shot. I just don’t know if it is going to be enough after messing up Sunday. But it’s lifestyle I am working for and there are going to be days I don’t stay on track. I really am tempted to do a week of Medifast to break things loose, but I am going to give it another week, working on getting more and more active. It will break loose eventually.
I’m watching an episode of Hoarding. It’s a real eye opener. Always makes me want to get up and clean house. I am nowhere close to being a hoarder, but there is always this fear there is a tiny bit of that in me and I don’t want to go there, lol. The loft is coming along. I’m trying to get on a maintenance schedule (now that I am not working so many hours) so it is ready for company at any given time. At least what I do now is mostly staying done (except the pets make a little mess). Sometimes I would like to get a smaller bed (mine is a queen) so I have more room in my bedroom. It makes it harder to make the bed, since it is pushed up in a corner. I would like to get a new bedspread. My comforter is too big to wash in my washer, and who wants to go to a Laundromat for 2 hours to wash it and dry it? Maybe I can find a cleaners that does laundry like that. I will check.
I was reading Lori’s blog again today. I want to get to where I can bike long distances (like she does). I think I am going to make at least one of my workouts each week a distance ride (on the recumbent bike, usually), but on my actual bike when I can. Just get on it while watching a favorite TV program, with a fairly low resistance (3 or 4) and ride as long as I can and see how many miles I can do. Other days I am trying to push the intensity a little by either doing intervals or hills or doing arm work at the same time. If the weather is good, I am going to take my bike to Katy Trail this weekend and take a longish ride (5 miles would be long for me right now). I will run Cas as far as he can and then put him up in the basket. Or maybe just go by myself. But he really needs some running.
I had written a paragraph that I took out about another thought process I am struggling with, but I felt a little neurotic, so took it out. Sometimes just typing it out helps, even if I delete it. It had to do with certain fears I have when pondering dating again and beginning a new relationship at some point. I just want to make sure I have proper boundaries so that I do not make the same mistakes again that I did during my marriage (and in choosing a partner). I would like to think I have grown to the point where I would not do that again, but I know I have to be on my guard. I am too apt to adapt myself to my perception of other people’s expectations. I don’t want to do that in an unhealthy way anymore.
I think the big thing with all the things I am talking about is I just need to keep making a little progress each week. I am not going to change overnight. But I want to be proactive about making changes, little by little.