I went to the doctor and got injections in both knees, so hopefully I will have a lot less pain for a month or three. I can get them every three months as long as they are helping. I asked him if they help radiating pain and he said sometimes, so we can hope! I also asked him if I will ever be able to run. He said it was possible! “Probably not 20 miles, but maybe 2 miles.” I will settle for being able to run a 5k someday. But if I have to have a knee replacement at some point, then I would not be able to run. Of course there has to be a lot more pounds lost and a lot of improvement in my back before I can ever think about running, but I can hope! You don’t often see a fat runner! That’s my philosophy. And if you do, I would venture to guess they either don’t stay fat or they don’t keep running!
|Drank down a couple of these instead.|
|This is what I wound up with last time.|
That is how far I got on my post yesterday. I worked late, and although got really hungry, was feeling okay. I switched my evening snack and my dinner so I wouldn't get home and be out of control.
When I did get home, I was feeling pretty hungry. I got my dinner in the oven and it was tough waiting on it. I had a little bit of peanut butter off a spoon. When I got done with my dinner, I don't know what came over me. I felt almost frantic. I have two explanations for it, other than I just lost it. My pain levels after the injection yesterday were pretty good and so I had not taken any medication. Looking back, I felt like I did when I was going through withdrawal. So, I probably waited long enough between doses to let withdrawal kick in. Also, the injection yesterday was a steroid, so that probably had something to do with it too. Anyway, I binged. It had nothing to do with the pizza, in case you are wondering. Usually when I binge, I binge on sweets. That's how it was last night too. It doesn't help that I have a CVS just steps from my door. I made myself feel sick, I ate so much.
So, what do I do today? I get up and go on just like nothing happened. It probably won't be the last time it ever happens. The bad thing is if I don't learn from it. I still don't have a good contingency plan in place for when I have to work late. I did have some baby carrots here and some clementines. I did eat some baby carrots before leaving work. Honestly, when I left work, I did not feel out of control. I had no idea that was going to happen. It wasn't like I was fighting it off all day. Honestly, I felt strong through most of the day. That's why I think it was probably a withdrawal thing or the steroid injection. I just have to be ready for that. If it has been more than 12 hours without a dose of medicine, I need to take a half dose just to ward off withdrawal symptoms. As I have shared in other posts, withdrawal will need to be slow if I don't want to gain 40 pounds like I did last time. It makes me want to eat everything in sight, especially sweets. If it was the steroid injection, I just need to be mindful of it next time I have one and be prepared for those feelings. I can overcome them, even though it makes it rough.
So, I don't know how that will affect my weight loss this week. I hate that I did it, but that's life. It happens. If this began to happen more often, I would think it was time to transition to something less restrictive. But I honestly think it was other things that caused it. I almost forgot to eat this morning. Definitely was not hungry. But I want to get right back on track, so had my Medifast Spiced Pancake.
I don't know if I will get to go home for lunch and walk today. Cas needs some walking. But my boss has a tendency to come in right around Noon and be ready to work, when I have been here since 8:30 and am ready for lunch. I do know he has to leave at 4:00 today, so I should not have to work late. I will walk then, for sure. It is pretty nippy this morning (about 40 degrees), but I think is supposed to get up in the high 50s this afternoon.
I do feel generally blah today. Like I just don't know what I want. I didn't want to go to work, but I didn't particularly want to stay home either. It will pass. I tried to pull up an anchor to think about and motivate me and that helped.
So, back to work.