I am really hungry this morning. That’s probably part of the problem. I ate four baby carrots before taking Cas to walk, just to get a little something in my tummy. I was still really hungry, so ate a clementine with my Medifast pancake. If I am going to deviate from the program because of hunger, I think this is the best way to do it. I don’t feel tempted – like I am having cravings – I am just hungry. The scale was down a little more this morning, though. J As the morning progressed, at about 11:00, even though I had my mid-morning snack at about 9:30, I was REALLY HUNGRY. I was beginning to entertain thoughts about what to do about it. I don’t know if my body is telling me, “I really need something more to eat,” or if I am at that place where if I stay the course, a good amount of progress can be made for staying with the plan. I would like to think it was the last thought. I had thoughts of having another crunch bar – not such a bad thing, it is only 110 calories, but I would run short later if I did that. I finally went and got some baby carrots out of the fridge and decided to eat those. My hope is that when I have my shake at lunch, that will nip this in the bud and I will have no problem continuing through the day on plan. I plan to continue through the day on plan, I just hope I am not this hungry all day. I can stand to be hungry, but I don’t think I could stand this all day. Whatever I do, I want to make wise choices, not go off and eat something totally off plan because I am this hungry.
I did 10 minutes of the Leslie Sansone video last night. I was thinking the one I was doing was the Weight Loss Walk, but the one I had in the machine was the Muscle Mile. She uses some light weights in the hands for part of it. I felt like I could have kept going, endurance-wise, but I wanted to be wise and not stir up anything. I did not do any knee lifts (just did kicks instead). I felt fine. The only twinge I had was when I stopped and turned to sit down, I felt a little twinge in my knee. But only a twinge and it did not come back. I did as much of the arm movements as I could (which was most of them), but did not use any weights yet. Again, I want to be wise. I will keep doing this. The video only lasted 5 more minutes before cool-down, so if I do it once or twice more without any twinges, I will go ahead and do the whole thing. But I will have to watch it on some of the cool-down stuff. She does some mini-squats, and my knees do not take those well. Although I think it is probably the radiating pain I am feeling when I do stuff like that, so I guess it affects my back more than knees. I hate that I have to baby my body so much. I am having to start at such a lower level than I used to because of these things.
I checked my steps on my armband readout when I got home from work last night. I believe I had something like 7,700 (my target right now is 8,000). Not bad! I forgot to put it back on when I took Cas for a short walk, but did put it back on for the Leslie Sansone video. I came out at around 9,200, so I probably was in the 9,800 range total. Pretty good! I found some new features on the readouts I didn’t know about. Graphs on how your activity looks through the day, etc. It was pretty much what I expected. It had graphs on my sleep activity too. It showed when I was just lying down vs. when I was actually asleep. It wasn’t too bad. I would have a few minutes here and there during the night where it showed I was lying down but not asleep, but not more than five or six minutes at a time. There were some blank times when I guess it was not picking up activity (maybe I was in a position that made it not be able to read anything). There was one night a week or so ago that had been a rough night for me. I had quite a bit of interrupted sleep, and when I saw how many minutes it said I slept (56 for the whole night), I thought, I knew I had a bad night, but I didn’t think it was this bad. Turns out, it had a long period it wasn’t reading anything. I guess the fact that it shows I am getting sleep is good. I had a sleep study some years ago (when I was trying to get approved for gastric bypass) and, although, I didn’t have much of any periods where I stopped breathing, it did show that I got very little deep REM sleep. Hopefully that is improved since I am about 60 pounds lighter now than I was then. Anyway, the information this armband provides is pretty interesting. Here are some pictures of the information my armband recorded. Not a bad day.
Remember, this left off one walk (although it doesn't look like it). I took my armband off and forgot to put it back on. The tallest spike of calorie burning was when I was doing the Leslie Sansone video.
I went to lunch and I still am really struggling. I didn’t walk my dog like I usually do. It’s kind of cold and breezy and I just didn’t do it. It wasn’t the exercise so much as getting outside. While home I decided to make me some cooked vegetables to see if the warm food would help. I had a few roasted Brussels sprouts and some steamed baby carrots. I also had my Medifast strawberry shake. My tummy is pretty full, but I do not feel satisfied. The thing that is holding me together is knowing that tomorrow is weigh-in day. I really want to get through this without falling apart. I am drinking a SF Red Bull, hoping it will give me a pick-me-up. Plus I like the way they taste, so maybe it will help with my satisfaction. I thought about buying an individual piece of candy – something that is just a bite or two – to see if that would help. But I am afraid that would just set me off, so I have not done that. I did eat a few peanuts out of a coworkers jar and I ended up eating my afternoon snack (the planned one) early. It was a crunch bar and I think that helped. I felt better after that. Hopefully I can make it through the rest of the day with no problem.
I am considering making tomorrow an off day instead of just an off meal, with the proviso that it is not a license to eat as much as I want to. Just a normal WW day, using a few extra points. I don’t have any huge cravings. I just want a “normal” day. But it will depend on how in control I feel tomorrow. And I may wake up more motivated and ready to just do the day like I have been doing, with one meal off. I just don’t want my hunger to build too much, or I will slip up the middle of next week.
I will update this post later and confirm that I made it through without any further slip-ups. Have to stay accountable!
Well, I’ve made it through mostly on plan. I did get into the Kashi GoLean Crisp and ate about a cup of it. My body feels like it’s crying out for carbs. The only thing that kept me going was that tomorrow is weigh-in. This was rough!