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Monday, January 28, 2013

Not Done With the Pain Yet

Note to Self:  Never take a nap on my couch, sleeping on my side.  I sure am paying for it.  This deal with my arm and shoulder hurting like it did before I had neck surgery is a little disconcerting.  It really started hurting after sleeping on the couch.  My lower back is not happy either.  If I am going to nap, I need to sleep on my bed in the same position I sleep in at night.

So, I had more pain than I have been having the last few days, when I woke up this morning.  I started talking to myself that perhaps I should not do the recumbent bike workout I had planned because of the pain.  But if I wait until I am not having pain to get exercise, I will never get any.  And that is precisely why I am doing the recumbent bike, because it is something I can do that doesn’t cause pain.  So I did it.  And it did not cause any extra pain and I am glad I did it.  I only got 20 minutes done because I started a little later than I intended, but I did it.  I made sure I added in some intervals that pushed me a little – got my heart rate up a little and made me sweat.  I also walked my dog this morning and again him at lunch.

Well, it seems I didn’t do something last month that I thought I did.  I didn’t pay my electric bill!  I couldn’t believe it.  I always pay my bills on time, and somehow I missed paying the electric bill and it got cut off this morning.  I have money to pay it, and called and paid it this morning, but I had to get ready in the dark this morning.  Fortunately I have lots of candles in my loft.  Duh.  I’m glad it went off before I got in the shower and washed my hair.  I would have been really late if it went off after my hair was wet.  Or I would have looked really bad.

There is light at the end of the tunnel on my finances, but I still have a little more to get through.  Steph started her new job today, so I will have to help her with bills until her money gets flowing.  I am so ready.

I forgot to eat my last MF meal last night.  I wasn’t hungry after eating the Lean & Green meal.

Food today:  For breakfast I had a shake.  (I was going to have pancakes, but then the power went off and I couldn’t cook one.)  Morning snack was a snack bar.  Lunch was spiced pancakes.  Then I had MF Chili Nacho Cheese Puffs for afternoon snack (one of my new meals).  More fish and veggies for L&G meal and a brownie (last one, thank goodness) for evening snack.

I think doing it this way is going to be better now.  I am having too much to make up for from my off-day.

I finally remembered to get my BodyMediaFit armband.  It is charging right now, so it will not have gotten most of the day’s activity, but tomorrow it will.  I did log my food for the day, including what I plan to eat tonight, and it added up to 869 calories.  My calories without the Lean & Green meal would have been 520.  But I feel more like doing workouts, and I am sure am burning enough to compensate for that.

When I got back from lunch, I had that good-tired feeling you get when you are first exercising.  I have a friend at work (I’ve talked about her before).  She went through a life-threatening situation two or three months ago.  She’s back at work now.  She had gastric bypass a couple of years ago, and what happened recently was, because of some scar tissue from her hysterectomy a few years ago that wrapped around her intestine, 3 feet of intestine was necrotic and they had to remove it and a little more.  So with what was taken in the gastric bypass and what had to be removed this time, she is experiencing some very big problems, every day.  She has diarrhea no matter how she eats and she never knows if she is going to have an episode that will have her running to the bathroom, which she may or may not be able to reach on time.  She went to a GI specialist last week.  They gave her a $260 drug, which was basically a high-powered Imodium AD, and it has done nothing for her.  Nothing she does seems to help.  She has to eat massive amounts of protein, just to make sure she gets adequate nutrition.  Her GI doctor basically told her, if whatever they are trying now doesn’t work, it is something she is going to have to live with the rest of her life.  So you can imagine her feelings of hopelessness.  So, if you would, please pray for some answers for her.  I feel so bad for her and I feel helpless that all I can do is tell her I will keep praying.  My heart goes out to her.  She said at lunch today she felt so hopeless, she ate a hamburger, which is likely to affect her very negatively.  She is losing weight because of this, but now is thinking, what happens if when she loses all the weight she needs to and she can’t stop losing weight?

Her situation makes me want to take care of myself more than ever.  I know how she feels – to have something going on every day that is keeping you from enjoying life – and yet you do what you know you should not because you are feeling so defeated.  Of course, her situation is so much more debilitating than mine, but I don’t want to get to that point in some way or another.

I feel like I could keep doing this Medifast thing with the L&G meal every day for an extended period of time, as long as I have that off-meal to look forward to each week.  If I need to do this for three or four months to get to where I need to pain-wise, I feel like I could do it.  It is good to know I have this tool if I need it.  And if it does not help the pain, it would get me to the place where I could have surgery that would help the pain.  So at least I have a hope of feeling better.  She does not have much hope right now.

If you have never read Michelle’s blog, hop over there today and see the poster her gym made of her that they are displaying to motivate their clients.  Michelle looks amazing – like she has been an athlete all her life.

I’m very tired tonight.  Going to have to go to bed early.

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