I thought it was time I should update. I’ve struggled the last few days, but I actually gave myself permission to relax a bit. I felt so emotionally and physically drained, I didn’t feel like too much restriction was what I needed.
My eating wasn’t horrible, most of the time, and although I did not formally work out, I probably was more active than I have been in quite a while. I have been busy sorting, packing and cleaning. A representative from the property management company was supposed to come over Saturday to look the house over before beginning to show it to prospective renters. I am not the best housekeeper anyway, and the last few weeks left me with no time for housework, and I didn’t feel good about people coming over. This weekend, once I would get started cleaning, etc., I had a hard time making myself stop. I wish I was born with the organization genes, but since I was not, I will have to satisfy myself with developing better habits, and that is what I want to do from here on out. Maintenance is my new mantra. If you maintain, you don’t have to do all this catch-up.
The lady from the property management company ended up not coming, and I didn’t get the message until 30 minutes after she was supposed to be there. I was so busy cleaning, etc., I didn’t hear my cell phone ringing when she called to tell me she wasn't coming. It was okay, I was glad for the excuse to get things done. She is coming later today, while no one is home, so I continued on with the cleaning, etc. yesterday and the house is cleaner than it has been in a long, long time.
My eating yesterday afternoon and evening was the worst. I don’t know why I would ever want to do that to myself, and it really wasn’t very enjoyable. I braved the scale this morning. Honestly, I was trying to brace myself for what was to come and I decided to set my mind that I would weigh 280 this morning, which would have been about a 5-pound gain. I didn’t know what to expect after several days of unfocused eating, not drinking my water, etc. My weight: 274.8. I only gained a little. This says two things to me. First, I think I should probably be eating a few more calories than I have been allowing myself on a “good” day. But I had to remind myself, although it felt like I had lost 5 pounds because of what I was expecting, I didn’t really. I actually gained a little weight. However, compared to what I was weighing late last week, this was a loss. The second thing this said to me was that all the activity of the last few days probably burned a lot of calories. I was up on my feet more than I have been in months.
Another good thing was, although I struggled with significant pain this weekend, I did not struggle with radiating pain much. Once I got up and going, that wasn’t a big issue. So I am hopeful that I can start doing some walking for exercise. I want to start doing a lot of walking, once I move. That is how I plan to get around, for the most part, when I move downtown. So I feel somewhat optimistic that I can do that. That being said, I still have to say, chronic pain is such a beat-down. My body felt like I had been run over by a truck a lot of the weekend. I'm pretty sure that's the fibromyalgia talking.
My goal this week is to lose 4.8 pounds. I know this is a lot, and if I don’t lose it, I won’t be discouraged. It is just a goal. I still want to get that 40 pounds off by the time I move. I have 5 weeks left, basically. I hope by staying exactly on track with my eating, since I have been kind of lax the last couple of weeks, will cause me to have a good drop. Plus drinking all my water, when I haven’t been doing that enough. We will see. I think I will try the week at 1600 calories per day, plus a splurge meal this weekend. We will see how my body does with that. I still have so much to do to get ready to move there will be plenty of activity.
I did get up and do a workout this morning. I just did 30 minutes at a moderate resistance (5-6) at 12 mph. I was really tired from all the activity this weekend, but got through the workout with no problems. I really struggled last week.
I am going to go ahead and close now. I need to get to work.