This has really been a tough week. I worked until about 11:00 last night. I got through after my post last night without any more food damage. Actually, according to my armband, I still had a 1,000 calorie deficit on my calorie burn. That’s enough for a 2 pound per week average loss. I didn’t drink enough water yesterday, though, so I need to make sure I do that today. So far so good on food today.
I got my 9th workout this morning (worked until 11:00 or after three nights this week and still got up and did my workout every morning). We will see if I can get a 10th tonight, but I am doubting it at this point. I think I will have to work late again. (Fridays are “historic” for me having to work late).
I did my hills workout this morning. It didn’t seem as easy this morning, because I am tired.
Actually, as I think about it, I think it would be a good idea for me not to do a workout tonight, even if I do get off on time. I need a little break, and I need to start back in tomorrow morning so I can get four workouts done this weekend. I am so glad I got those four workouts done last weekend, or I wouldn’t have gotten near all of my workouts done this week. So that’s the plan this weekend.
I was talking to a friend at work about having to work so much and I got kind of teary this morning. I hate that. I am just feeling a little overwhelmed this week. It is not that I am mad at anyone. This is just life for me right now. I know if my sister, Kathi, is reading this, she will be mad. I think she thinks I get taken advantage of. I don’t think so, most of the time. I knew about the late nights when I took the position. That is actually one reason I took it. I needed to support my single-parent household since I got little help from my children’s father. That is not so much of an issue as it used to be, but I still do help them quite a bit. This was an expensive week with the trips to the ER and medical testing. I was glad I had some money in savings.
Realistically, though, I cannot do this all the time. It will be detrimental to my health. I jokingly sent the following e-mail to my friend at work (she is kind of in HR for the firm, as an assistant to the Administrator):
I have a request to be presented to the Board as soon as possible. I request that a bedroom be installed for me, complete with a bed, some kind of apparatus on which to get a workout, a television, and something to store a change of clothes in, as soon as possible. Also, a means to take a bath would be appreciated. If I am going to keep working until after 11:00 every night, I think this is an efficient solution to my problem of getting only 2-3 hours of sleep per night.
I request that such bedroom be made available to me by Monday morning of next week.
Committed to the Cause,
P.S. I AM KIDDING!!!!! (Sort of.)
I was kidding (and she knew I was), but if there was a place like this in our offices, I would certainly be tempted to take advantage of it some nights. That is why I am so looking forward to moving on September 1. Then I just have to walk a block home. I can’t wait!!!!!!
So, I need to get some good rest this weekend to get my emotions under control.
I was shocked to learn the other day that my sister thought I loved my job so much I could live without it. My answer: I don't really have a choice. I do not have a husband to take care of me. If I do not work, we have no place to live, no food to eat, etc., etc. So I have to be dedicated to my job. I do love my job, and since I have to work, I am glad I have a job I love. But if I had the choice, I am not sure I would make the choice to work full-time. I do not need a job to fulfill me. I enjoy being good at it, but I would love to have some free time. Especially if I had a special someone to spend my life with.
Speaking of which, that is on the agenda in the coming months. I did some dating in 2009, and liked it. I got my heart broken a little bit, but not too bad. I do want to find someone very special who I can grow old with. I just want to get to feeling better so I feel like I have more to bring to the relationship. When that times comes, I am going to have to tell my boss that I want a little bit more of a life. I don’t want to spend every waking moment working. I just hope I can find the type of guy I am looking for. He certainly doesn’t have to be perfect. I just want someone who values me for who I am and who I enjoy being with. And someone who brings at least as much to the table, financially speaking, as I do. I am not looking for a rich man; I just don’t want to be the major breadwinner. Been there, done that. I also want someone I can be active with. But I have to get better so I can do my part, first. So, it will be a few months before I am ready to date again.
Look what I found. Since I don’t feel good about the SF Red Bulls (and certainly don’t need the calories of a regular Red Bull), this is an alternative. It tasted pretty decent. I wouldn’t want to do it every day, but on days like today when I am dragging, it does help. They have them at Costco – 30 in a box for $29.99. I bought this one downstairs in a convenience store for $1.99. By the way, I am trying to hide my thumbnail in the picture because it is kind of green. I got guacamole under it when I was eating my sandwich for lunch. Lol.
Tomorrow is weigh-in day. I am not sure I will have a loss. I have been under 280 some days this week, but was not this morning. But there was that whole “not drinking my water” thing yesterday. Whatever. I have eaten well enough to make progress and if it does not show up on the scale yet, it will soon.
Have a great weekend everyone.