It has been a nice balance of busy and restful today. I stayed up reading until 2:00 a.m. this morning and had to get up to go look at houses, so didn't get a full 8 hours on a weekend night. I felt fairly well rested, but knew I might want a nap sometime this afternoon.
We went to look at 3 houses, all of which have potential. One was larger than the other two but needed the most cosmetic work. The other two were updated and pretty nice in some ways, one having a pool, but were small enough that they might be a problem. Mainly because the living areas were pretty small for my furniture. I ended up being most interested in the one that needed the most work. It is entirely livable the way it is. It is lower in my budget, cost-wise, so I would have a nice, low monthly payment for my mortgage, somewhere around $200-300 less than what I budgeted for a "high." I can get a second loan to do the cosmetic work -- update the kitchen somewhat, wood (or wood laminate) floors in the bedrooms, and possibly a couple of other things, and pay it off as quickly as possible. Then, going into retirement I will have a much lower house payment, which will be good. I have not made a decision yet (still have to wait on the backup offer expiring, if it does), but that is the way I am leaning on the three I saw today. We decided having enough room was more important than having a pool, which is the main thing that would have drawn me to one of the other houses. This one has also been on the market over two months, so I probably would not get into a multiple offer situation, which I am not a fan of. The other three I made offers on were more like I would ultimately want them (just too small); this one I would make it, over time, into what I would ultimately want.
I actually made some progress on my ambitious "To Do List" beginning last night. I have been working away on some things today, although there is plenty, plenty more to do. I cooked one of the "dishes" I had planned to cook this evening. It is a dip I cooked to make use of some of the Greek yogurt I have that I did not want to go bad. I will freeze it in individual containers so I can have it whenever I choose. It is a spinach-artichoke dip, so already full of veggies, but I will probably use it with carrot and celery sticks, or spread it on a sandwich or burger. I could use it to stuff squash that I am roasting. I could even put some on scrambled eggs.
Honestly, I was not in the mood to cook. Not for the reason you might think (the fact that I cannot eat it right now), but for the same reasons I have not wanted to for the past few months. I am "tired" and I don't want to be on my feet that much. But I also realized I do not have to let those feelings control me. As for the being on my feet part, there are things I can do to help that situation. I can sit down during some of my prep work to minimize the time on my feet, although I did not do that today. I have a rolling stool I can use wherever I need to while I am working. The thing is, I have to cook to be able to eat like I need to, to avoid food allergies and to eat cleanly. I did have some legitimate reasons I did not want to cook many times, but I am feeling better. I need to get this done to be able to fulfill my plan when I start eating again.
Tomorrow I plan to make three different veggies that will make a number of meals during the first week I start eating. I need to have those ready so that when I get ready to break this fast, I can be successful. The vegetables are this green bean recipe by Pioneer Woman which is very good, some roasted carrots, and some roasted squash. I will divide these up into containers (that have three compartments in each) so I can pull one out for each meal when I start eating again. I should also have enough for some meals after that, too.
The cooking actually did not bother me in the way you might think. It did not give me uncontrollable desires to eat. The way it affected me is a feeling of weakness from the activity. I drank down water while I was cooking and that helped. I did have some stiffness in my left knee (the one that was replaced) which I often get when standing in one place too long. I also had some pain in my left hip after my work in the kitchen. More work to be done. More weight to be lost.
Other than that, my pain today has been pretty good, although I did have some twinge-y pain in my back when bringing in groceries, etc. I have had some nausea today, but not as much as yesterday. I did have some "purging" this morning.
So, I do have a feeling of accomplishment for the things I have done so far. I need to do a lot more tomorrow. I will do enough that feels comfortable and the rest can be done in the days to follow. No pressure. The purpose is to provide me some structure and make progress.
One thing. All week when I have been reading, I have had to fight feeling like I would fall asleep. This afternoon I did not fight it. I took a good, long nap. My daughter said she even came into my room to ask me something and I did not wake up. It felt good.
All in all, a very good day. 18 down; 482 to go!